It feels right…

15 Aug

I’ve never lived alone. I married young and moved from my mother’s place to my husbands. And while I’ve been renting a room for the last couple of months, it’s just a room – no kitchen – and is part of the Valley Hillbillies house. So doesn’t qualify in my humble opinion as “living alone”.

But at long last, I found the place that I will call my home for the next year. It’s a condo close to my office and not in the biggity O (for those that have followed my urban vision quest.) My mother is happy knowing that I have reduced the chance of rape and murder. She’s optimistic this way.

Anyhoohaw, I move in this Friday and I’m getting pretty excited. I bought a brand new bed and stuff and plan to cook my first meal that night. Comcast and PG&E are ready to go so I’ll have lights and wifi! Oh, and I’m taking the Jura Capressa Impressa Z5 espresso machine from the hubby. #cuziamacoffeewhore

Possibly the biggest decision I’ll have to make is what the hell to cook for my first night there. Must decide if I splurge before Friday and buy a gas grill for the patio, because I reallyreallyreally want grilled lamb chops (marinated in good olive oil, salt, pepper, garlic, and lemon). And a greek salad. And maybe some chocolate for dessert. I can live without a couch, kitchen table and lamps on day 1 – but must have in no particular order: good food, vodka, coffee. The rest will work itself out over time.

Of course, The Rockstar offered to cook for me, cuz he haz mad skillz in the kitchen. But for my first night, I’ll be pickled and tickled and doing it for me, my way, hell yes. Rockstar can cook Saturday!! (Please and thanks!)

The idea of my very own place, with just me in it, fills me with satisfaction and fear. It’s been a rocky couple of weeks, with the reality of my separation settling in and warring against the newness of not being married and dependent. I’ve been making a good number of decisions lately based on instinct. I’ve been saying “you just know”. I think people need to listen to themselves more and stop questioning so much.

My life. One day at a time. It just feels right.


10 Responses to “It feels right…”

  1. Jessica August 15, 2011 at 1:40 pm #

    Totally agree that we all should listen to that inner voice more often – it usually has, at least, something important to say.

    Congrats on your first place all your own!! Relish in it!

    • Lisa August 15, 2011 at 1:51 pm #

      Thanks Jessica – I am trying hard to hear me this time around. And by this time around, I mean, the rest of my life…

  2. thenicknick August 15, 2011 at 5:18 pm #

    Leap and the net will appear, girl. I truly believe it. That philosophy has never served me wrong.

    • Lisa August 16, 2011 at 9:17 am #

      It’s time to take chances *gulp*

  3. Todd X. (@toddx) August 15, 2011 at 6:15 pm #

    I hope you share pics of that first meal. Freedom will taste very good.

    • Lisa August 16, 2011 at 9:18 am #

      Oh fo sho I will! I’ll have to pose it all seductive like – #foodporn

  4. madtante August 16, 2011 at 6:42 am #

    I’m so happy that you’re in a place that feels RIGHT. That’s a good place to be. Remember it and this time.

    • Lisa August 16, 2011 at 9:19 am #

      I’m actually quite scared, but know this is the right place and right time for me. Thanks hon!

  5. mommasunshine August 18, 2011 at 1:10 pm #

    I’m the closest to living alone that I have ever been in my life. I have my two daughters, but they’re with their dad half the time, so the other half it’s just me…and I have to say I love those nights when I just get to do my own thing. I also love being able to make all my own decorating decisions without having to consult anyone else. There are definitely perks to living alone…

    • Lisa August 27, 2011 at 11:27 am #

      I’m starting over from scratch mostly as I decided not to take anything from the house. I gave away half of my clothes, shoes, handbags etc. and took just a few kitchen items. All new furniture – and yes, making the decorating decisions without consulting anyone is awesome. I’ve learned I second guess myself now but it’s kind of okay. For now!

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