One last night…

8 Mar

It’s been 9 months since the hubby and I split. We didn’t however split our financial expenses until this week. We spent the last month negotiating who would pay for what and finally agreed. So now he’s got his own checking account, his own credit cards and his share of our obligations. It’s time. It’s our time to move on.

It was a bittersweet meet-n-greet on Tuesday to finalize that. We spent 30 minutes making sure we captured everything, then the next hour drinking cocktails and talking about the future.

We chatted about the new people in our life, gossiped a little about people we know, and then we talked about Buddy. This is our 16-year old Yorkie. I’ve had both of our dogs for the last 4 weekends and I’ve noticed such a marked change in Buddy that we talked again about euthanasia. It wasn’t a new conversation, but it hurts every time to talk about it. The selfish parts of us don’t want to let him go. The pragmatic side knows he’s just hanging on to this life. He doesn’t eat his dog food anymore, he can’t keep his dog treats down, and he doesn’t know where he is. Our vet told us that when his quality of life diminishes to the point where he no longer wants to be with us, that’s when it’s time to make that appointment.

My sweet little Buddy

It’s time. It’s his time to move on. To be greeted by Spike and Nikki, our other beloved pets who will surely be waiting with tails wagging and big doggie smiles to greet and welcome Buddy to the meadow.

With heavy hearts, we set the date with the vet. It’ll be tomorrow, Friday. I’m meeting the ex in a few hours to take Buddy and Sparticus to my place for one last night together. I want to be strong and not some weepy girl, but I am just a puddle of tears about all the change that’s going on.

I don’t have a pithy point to this post. No earth shattering self-realization. No correlation between what I’m experiencing and my past life. I’m just putting computer ink on computer post paper.

For my sweet little Buddy – you are loved and cherished and I thank you with all my heart for the 16 devoted years you loved me.

For my dog loving friends – a few quotes to remind us all why dogs are so revered…

My little dog – a heartbeat at my feet.  ~Edith Wharton

Happiness is a warm puppy.  ~Charles M. Schulz

Whoever said you can’t buy happiness forgot little puppies.  ~Gene Hill


6 Responses to “One last night…”

  1. kim March 8, 2012 at 6:23 pm #

    as I read this my eyes swell with tears. i’m so sorry Lisa my thoughts and prayers go out to you both. if there is anything you need just call me. hugs to you both.
    luv ya Kim

  2. Blogdramedy March 8, 2012 at 7:05 pm #

    You are doing a good thing…the right thing. Buddy will always be your buddy. That’s the great thing about dogs…and memories.

  3. Fabulously Awkward March 9, 2012 at 8:19 am #

    I’m sending you a big hug. I’m so sorry.

  4. weid0089 March 14, 2012 at 8:28 am #

    I’m so sorry. Just know that you will feel better once this is all over. My boyfriend went through the same situation last year. He ended his marriage of 12 years and had to let their cat go. After a year, he and his ex are finally able to be friends. They understand now that friendship always should have been the extent of their relationship. They were high school sweethearts. Unfortunately, or fortunately, people change a lot throughout life and you’re not always the same as you were in high school. His and your experience are teaching me a lot about life, marriage and change. So thank you.

  5. HoaiPhai April 13, 2012 at 1:33 am #

    So sorry. Happy trails to Buddy.

  6. Ed (The Dogs of Beer) May 5, 2012 at 5:05 pm #

    “A dog’s life is short. In truth it is their only fault” – Sir Walter Scott

    “Nothing makes a man feel more like a helpless little boy then the day his dog dies” – Ed (me)

    Lost my greyhound 2 months ago. Sorry for your loss.

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